[ It's so strange, having finally seen her own mother, to know who she is. But that mix of feelings is something she can't put her finger on, can't touch and understand. Ellie never heard a word about her father, guessing no one knew who he was. Maybe her mother had a distant boyfriend, or worse... But who was she to know or even say? She's sick and delighted all at the same time, sad and excited... But her memory focuses on that bite, on where they were. Did they try to escape the QZ? But why? ]
[ She hears what Matthew says, and it feels like a compliment, but registers as something hardly close to it. She doesn't feel happy, but she doesn't feel sad either. What the fuck is going on in her chest right now? ]
She...
She was infected.
[ And somehow talking makes her a liar. Ellie's throat begins to burn, her eyes well up and tears immediately start to flood and flow down her face. She's staring out in the distance, dazed and stuck in this living reverie that she can't seem to get out of. ]
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[ She hears what Matthew says, and it feels like a compliment, but registers as something hardly close to it. She doesn't feel happy, but she doesn't feel sad either. What the fuck is going on in her chest right now? ]
She...
She was infected.
[ And somehow talking makes her a liar. Ellie's throat begins to burn, her eyes well up and tears immediately start to flood and flow down her face. She's staring out in the distance, dazed and stuck in this living reverie that she can't seem to get out of. ]